Have you ever known you were awake and yet wondered if you were asleep. I KNOW I was awake. But as I lay in bed, going over my kids, I lost one. I didn't have a clue where she was. I could rattle off the names of the 5 kids, I could picture their spouses and kids...but one just didn't show up. And all I could do was remember her name and see her as she was 6. I got panicky. I even called Robert on the phone..and I know I did this cuz he didn't answer my 8 tries but then when he got inside and warmer, he called to see why I had called so often. She was just gone.
About 20 minutes late, i knew who and where she was, what she looked like. phew! But.....
So then I worried about having the start of alzheimers but Robert insists I was really asleep. I don't buy it.
So if I suddenly depart the world of knowing you, know that today I knew I loved you, my faithful readers. I remember times I have spent with you. I hope it lasts, this thing called memory. But if it doesn't, just know that once I did have you in my heart, mind.